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Dahil masaya mabuhay.

Dahil marami akong pinagsisisihan sa mga ginawa ko.

Dahil ang mga katagang "it’s too late" ay di lang para sa mga hospital drama.

Dahil natatanong ko sa sarili ko kung bakit di na lang parang dati.

Dahil sana nakokontrol ko ang apoy at kadiliman.

Dahil gusto ko mambura ng mga tao sa friends’ list ko.

Dahil unti-unting nasisira ang buhay ko.

Dahil sanay na ako sa ganitong pagtrato kahit alam kong di dapat ako ganito tratuhin.

Dahil gusto ko lang.

Dahil ang kapatid ng dagang si Yuki na si Yuko ay pumasok sa kwarto.

Dahil sumasakit uli ang tiyan ko.

Dahil alam kong mag-uusap na naman kami ni Lord mamaya at magsisimula ang paghagulgol ko sa kanya ng "Lord, di ba…"

Dahil wala ako sa mood pumasok bukas kahit alam kong kailangan.

Dahil ayoko na ever pumuntang CMC library dahil sawa na ako maghintay dun.

Dahil kung anu-ano uli ang pumapasok sa isip ko.

Dahil gusto ko mawala ng ilang linggo, para hanapin ako ng mga tao kung hahanapin nga nila ako.

Dahil ang tanga-tanga ko.

Dahil nakakarma ata ako.

Dahil naasar ako sa’yo at sa kanila.

Dahil naasar ako sa sarili ko.

Dahil andami kong pinapasaya kahit ako gusto ko na talaga umiyak.

Dahil gusto ko matulog at hindi na gumising.

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Paano kaya pag hindi na nga ako magising? Ano kaya gagawin mo? Laging mong tinatanong sa akin kung ano ang gagawin ko kung bigla kang mamatay. Dahil sinubukan mo, alam mo na ang sagot. Ako kaya, subukan ko?

Ako naman kaya ngayon?

First and foremost, I would like to suggest you guys to download and listen to the songs I post here. Why? ‘Cause they’re all good.

Now, here’s something.

I love this song. Muse knows me. Personally. Really

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TIME IS RUNNING OUT

-MUSE-

I think I’m drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break the spell
that you’ve created

you’re something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be
the death of me
yeah, you will be
the death of me

bury it
I won’t let you bury it
I won’t let you smother it
I won’t let you murder it

our time is running out
and our time is running out
you can’t push it underground
we can’t stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
but I’m restricted
I tried to give you up
but I’m addicted

now that you know I’m trapped
sense of elation
you’ll never dream of breaking this fixation
you will squeeze the life out of me

bury it
I won’t let you bury it
I won’t let you smother it
I won’t let you murder it

our time is running out
and our time is running out
you can’t push it underground
we can’t stop it screaming out
how did it come to this

you will suck the life out of me

bury it
I won’t let you bury it
I won’t let you smother it
I won’t let you murder it

our time is running out
and our time is running out
you can’t push it underground
we can’t stop it screaming out

how did it come to this

I like its beats. And I seem to be enjoying break-up and bitter songs lately. Is this a sign? *pulls out shovel and gun* No, silly. I’m not going to use it…

On myself, of course.

>:)

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HOT HOT HEAT

Goodnight Goodnight
It’s not enough to hear me say you’ve won
You only wanted me for having fun
But now I think you’ve gone and had your way
And left me with a pile of bills to pay
I can’t even rewind the tape machine
To listen to your drunken reasoning
So here it is - your final lullaby

Goodnight, goodnight
You’re embarrassing me
You’re embarrassing you
So Goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So goodnight